Some Friends I Can Lean On

Well, last night my best friend did end up coming over. He was having a bad day, and so his not wanting to come over in sense had nothing really to do with me. Maybe. Once he got here, I ended up having an almost nice time. But, after he left this morning, I started doing some work. I was doing fine until I got to the part of my work that deals with violence - and now I feel my heart racing and I'm having a hard time concentrating and all this PTSD stuff comes back in. But, this is my work and I need to get it done. I'm torn between being WAY behind in my work and needing to push myself to catch up and wanting to just give myself a break and not have to work on it until I'm feeling better. I can tell that the more I put it off though, the more it is becoming this sort of complex of anxiety about doing my work. So, I'm trying to push myself as hard as I can take it right now, while still having patience with myself.