How Do I Respond?

I'm really still blown away and hurt by *A*, my supposed best friend. Deciding to be the bigger man, I called him last night. He said that he was renting a movie, and otherwise basically had nothing to say. I said that I was sorry if Friday I was snappish. He didn't say anything. I even asked him, what do you not have anything to say? And he said yes. What am I supposed to do with this?

I'm not even going to see him, I guess, for two weeks because next weekend I'm going to a conference, and during the week, he never feels like doing anything after work and now things are just crap between us, and I'm not sure how I should respond. I feel like just closing up and realizing once again that *A* is not capable of a real relationship, that he refuses to communicate, and that sometimes, he just won't be there for me and won't give me explanations. And, he really doesn't want a real relationship. He wants easy relationships that require little and give much.

Well fuck that. So I'm in a time where I'm kinda needy. I hate that many of my relationships tend to be ruined when I need more then I get AND I recognize that I can be really needy at times. But, *A* is the only support that I where I live. Losing that is a really big set back.

I guess maybe the only thing to do is to try to put whatever aside with him and figure out if there are other people out here that I can connect with in little ways. And I have to let go of missing him and be hurt by him and my dream that he and I could end up together.