Looking Back

Okay, you can tell from all of my postings that I'm procrastinating working, but I'm really in a lot of pain and dizzy and curious about what is going on and how to make it better. Anyway, I was looking back to see when this all started June 4, which is exactly a month before I'm supposed to travel back to Kansas City. It is also right after my mystical night with *Z*. Everytime I've been sick, it has actually been after having sex with some guy and getting my hopes up really high about the relationship and having a hard fall to the ground. I think that maybe I literally am not strong enough to get my heartbroken...and I tend to set myself up for it. Anyway, maybe I'm reading too much into all of this.

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