The Real Struggle

Okay, just a brief note that I realize that my larger struggle here is to find some sort of balance in my life and still do all of the traveling and shifting between work, taking care of family, and just living; between taking care of myself and taking care of my parents; between giving myself space to grief and have a hard time and pushing myself to let go of that and enjoy life a bit; between trying to work to improve myself and appreciating who I am. My therapist told me in so many words that I need to have more fun, and I think she's right. I think that I need to start venturing out more by myself to do things that I want to do - like see art, hear live music, find more alternative type venues. It is really hard; I want to have someone to meet up with and often don't have a lot of energy after I put Mom to bed, but I need to take responsibility for creating happiness in my life, every day.