Baby Steps

I'm feeling good today. I went to therapy and then acupuncture. My acuputurist is this odd Jewish guy who tends to suggest that I eat a lot of chicken soup. He also uses essential oils before inserting the needles and then does some guided meditation. I get so deeply relaxed. It was perfect, I think to go right after therapy. I feel so mellow right now, I'm not even going to try to work. I was talking with my therapist about how I really just need like 3 months off from work just to recover. But, of course that can't happen; gotta keep working. It is Spring Break now - I finished grading today. But, of course for the next 3 days, my research group is meeting. How do I manage to give myself the time and the space to heal AND keep up with my work?

I do recognize though that this isn't like the last whirlwind of PTSD that I had after I was raped. I am much more aware of the process, and I can see that it is moving forward, even if it is very painful. It is very hard to not lose faith, but I know that at some point, this too shall pass.