Conflicting Advice

I called the woman from the local Alzheimer's Association and she gave almost opposite advice of the KC Alzheimer's Assn. The really frustrating thing is that both tended to give me advice and really push on it that doesn't fit the situation. Both pushed that I need to get my mom medicated. Well how the hell am I supposed to do that? I feel like everyone keeps telling me what to do and pushing me to do more and more. Okay, and of course I'm over-simplifying, but I'm just frustrated.

I had lunch with this woman from the rape crisis center who heard my presentation last week. Turns out, she's actually leaving the center because of some of the issues that I brought up in my talk - that there is a sort of fear of authority, a need to do things by consensus which leads to certain things not getting done. Another staff member is leaving as well, so the turnover there is just out of control.

But anyway, she asked about my research, and what the fuck do I have to say? What am I doing today, she asked. Well, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing today. I'm going to survive and take things as they come and maybe do a little work for my research team. I feel like my life is spinning out of control and like I'm moving farther and farther away from the things that I want in life.

I really do appreciate my close friends like S and K who look out for me and check up on me.