Taking the Path of Least Resistence: Baby Steps Instead of Leaps

I'm trying to not force myself to do things so much and to be able to reconnect with my gut. So, instead of dealing with the whole "Notebook" issue, I just went over to some friends' place to watch the "L Word." *A* ended up getting dropped off over at my place after going bowling and drinking, so he spent the night, and we had breakfast. But, I have come to terms better now that what we have is a friendship. In part, I feel this way because I'm pretty convinced that he's gay.

But anyway, today, I'm trying to force myself to get into my thesis work, but this is somewhat unsuccessful. I know that getting the thesis done is the key to having options about moving forward with my life including being able to spend some time with Mom again.

I'm trying to work on the task that the therapist from Kansas City left me with, to connect with more people but on more superficial levels. I tend to get too dependent and emeshed with a small group of people. She pointed out that healthy people have connections with people on mulitple levels of depth, and that task is to work on just getting out there more and connecting with more people.

Tonight I have a first date with someone that I met last year on match.com but never bothered meeting because I was traveling so much. We're just meeting for a drink at the bar around the corner. My friend, Merissa, might come up to town to visit later this week. I'm proud of myself for not isolating myself. Now, if I could only concentrate on getting my work done!