JewBu Quest: From Abuse to Happiness

JewBu: a Jew who practices forms of Buddhist meditation & spirituality. This blog documents my quest to 1) heal from sexual, verbal, and emotional abuse, 2) come to terms with losing Mom and Grandma to Alzheimers, 3) find balance, explore the spiritual, stay present. Bascially, I've experienced some pretty crappy shit in my life and want to find a way to move past it and find happiness.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Moving is a Nightmare

I'm in the middle of a nightmare. I drove across the country with a good friend who is a very good sport. It cost more than I expected to ship stuff, I didn't finish packing in time, and I stuffed the car to the brim and there was more left over. The second day, my dog got altitude sickness and then had a panic attack in the hotel room. Two days later, I saw my mom and family in Kansas City. Then next day, I saw a good friend in Indianapolis.

The whole trip took a week. I was exhausted when we got here, and so was my friend. I only had the rental car for a couple of days, so I tried to make the most of it. But, the short version is that I've been living without furniture, living out of boxes. The place here isn't safe and my dog is showing signs of extreme stress. Now, I'm showing signs of stress, :P.

I am trying to get out of my lease here and move into a new place, and the whole thing is a mess. Landlord WAS understanding, and then sent me a late night freak out email. The new place was a done deal, and now they may not take the dog. I'm completely and totally exhausted and about at my wits end. I feel very alone right now and scared.