Fantastic Camping Trip

This weekend, I went camping with friends and had a fantastic time. It was SOOOOO nice to have some time just to be and relax. My friends were super supportive and reaffirming of me taking care of my needs. It just felt really great and was fun and fabulous...even though the winds the last night got up to 50 mph!

But, as soon as I got back, the stress quickly seeped back in as I got home. I'm missing deadlines. I'm not producing things at the level of quality that I need to. I'm exhausted. I'm sick of dating. I want more vacation.

I'm super happy that things are so good with my family, and very relieved.

Mom's developed some new weird symptom where she's losing control of her hand and will just jerk it around sometimes. She bumped up her finger pretty bad. But, otherwise things are pretty much the same according to my dad and sister.

Great Day!

I had a fantastic day today. This morning, I went to a seminar offered by hospice where I got a lot of my questions finally answered. I then spoke with my dad about what happened, and we arranged to sit down with my sister when I'm in town and talk about how things are with Mom and what can be done to make her more comfortable. He also went through his denial a bit about what our situation is and how bad things are with Mom.

Then, my friends came by my place, and we drove into wine country for a tasting. We immediately ran into another friend and just lost track of time at the first winery, savoring the taste of really amazing wines. Then, we made it to my favorite winery - a place both sustainable and organic. I became a member, so I can go by 9 times a year to pick up a shipment of two wines and have a free tasting with a friend or two. My date guy arranged for us to get free tastings there.

Then, we made a vegan picnic out at a park. It was cold, but fun. We just sat around and talked and laughed. It felt so good just to hang out and be a person.

When we came back and two stayed to watch a movie. It was a lot of fun. And one friend made me this amazing ceramic vase. Another friend came even though she's doing a fast and couldn't eat or drink anything. Screw that others who I thought were my friends blew me off; I had a great time.